Experience of Devi on Diwali 25-10-03 4.15 am:
Started with some allergy. Locked on to anahata, coming and going like
waves.
I was dragged in a current of thought, co-existing with
anahata.
Started wondering about the grand question: is matter a combination of
space and time or is it an independent entity? Energy having
dimensions MLT-2, can matter be a combination of space and time?
The image of Rei-ki symbol flashed, shokure, or its sanskrit
interpretation sakala. the symbol sakala, which starts off as a
horizontal line x axis, sharply becomes vertical time axis and
then spirals in to center. A galaxy forming out of time and space
interactions. It magnifies your intent to heal.
Take x, t space. Consider a square in that. Where t is constant and x
varies, it is wave like, existing at more than one point. Where x is
constant, t varies, it is like a particle that is born, lives,
dies.
Consider a circle in x, t space. it is showing space and time
constantly becoming each other. How many different pictures can i draw
in space time?
With time constant, can space x be considered moving? What is space
moving? Isn't movement a property of time?
Space and time: where do they exist? They are in my mind.
Space, time cant be independent of mind.
What is motion?
It is a locus of thought in the mind.
The program director springs to my mind. you create a movie by
assembling objects (images, vector graphics) in space and time
dimensions, limiting them in whatever ways I desire. existence on
stage is defined by extent in time lines. sounds mix space and time in
linear ways. animations mix it in more complex ways, allowing going
back and forth merrily in time through subjective interactions called
lingo and behaviors. It all seems to be trajectories of properties of
objects in the space of program.
I seem throttled. I don't have the lingo to express thoughts
independent of somehow referring to time. Words like change, flow,
verbs, predicates, force me into saying things in the lingo of linear
time, where as reality seems to have no such limitations. What am I to
do, how am I going to communicate, if language is denied? I
feel I am an inarticulate speck of sand on the shore of an ocean
trying to describe the ocean I am seeing to the world. Pitiable
pettiness grips my throat. "Yato vaacha nivartante apraapya
manasa saha" - a sanskrit quote meaning " from where
words returned being unable to show the immensity."
I sought the grace. O mother, when will you lift me out of
pettiness?
Then i saw mother. What beauty, what perfection, what harmony,
what richness! I saw her bright form, I saw her dark form.
Pastel shades, and dark hues. Infinite variety tapestry of beauty upon
beauty expressing in excellence, in perfection. Vector graphic
faces in the most beautiful colours from every culture, every time.
Perfection personified. Crystals, facets, jewels, rainbow colors,
vying with each other to come, display their fashion, show and vanish.
Fleeting instances of glory. Lasted about 20 minutes.
What is the way to such a
blissful experience of mother?
Surrender to silence and keep aspiration alive in you. That is the
way. A constant commitment to beauty. Unletting dedication to
truth and loving all. These are some of the ways. I know I
cant make you see what I saw. But I am sure of somethings:
We are going to see beauty, harmony, peace, richness, prosperity come
to this world like never before. You are going to witness it in your
life times. Love is going to open up in mighty rivers. Crime will not
pay. Pettiness will go. You will love everyone as you love your own
children.
I love you. I will give you peace. That is a promise.
I cannot make you see Her. I will do my best, but that is
something that you have to earn.
Amrita
Deepavali 25th October, 2003
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