Saturday, April 30, 2016

For I am divided for love's sake, for the chance of union

 (this is from the Book of the Law, but there is no doubts what these are the words of Kamakhya Herself): 


[Devi says]: Since I am Infinite Space, and the Infinite Stars thereof, do ye also thus. Bind  nothing! Let there be no difference made among you between any one thing & any other thing; for thereby  there cometh hurt...But whoso availeth in this, let him be the chief of all!

...Then saith the prophet and slave of the beauteous  one: Who am I, and what shall be the sign?
- So she  answered him, bendingdown, a lambent flame of blue, all-touching, all penetrant, her lovely hands upon the  black earth, & her lithe body arched for love, and her soft feet not hurting the little flowers: Thou knowest!  And the sign shall be my ecstasy, the consciousness of the continuity of existence, the omnipresence of my body. 

Then the priest answered & said unto the Queen of  Space, kissing her lovely brows, and the dew of her light bathing his whole body in a sweet-smelling perfume of sweat: O Nuit, continuous one  of Heaven, let it be ever thus; that men speak not  of Thee as One but as None; and let them speak not of thee at all, since thou art continuous!



None, breathed the light, faint &  faery, of the stars, and two.  For I am divided for love's sake, for the chance of union. This is the creation of the world, that the pain of division is as  nothing, and the joy of dissolution all.  For these fools of men and their woes care not thou at all! They feel little; what is, is balanced by weak  joys; but ye are my chosen ones.  Obey my prophet! follow out the ordeals of my knowledge! seek me only! Then the joys of my love will  redeem ye from all pain. This is so: I swear it by the vault of my body; by my sacred heart and tongue; by  all I can give, by all I desire of ye all. 
...The word of Sin is Restriction. O man! refuse not  thy wife, if she will! O lover, if thou wilt, depart! There  is no bond that can unite the divided but love: all else is a curse. Accursed! Accursed be it to the aeons! Hell.  Let it be that state of manyhood bound and loathing. So with thy all; thou hast no right but to do thy will.  Do that, and no other shall say nay.  For pure will, unassuaged of purpose, delivered from the lust of result, is every way perfect. The Perfect and the Perfect are one Perfect and not two; nay, are none! 

...I give unimaginable joys on earth: certainty, not faith, while in life, upon death; peace unutterable, rest, ecstasy; nor do I demand aught in sacrifice. My incense is of resinous woods & gums; and there is no blood therein: because of my hair the trees of Eternity. 
My number is 11, as all their numbers who are of us. The Five Pointed Star, with a Circle in the Middle, & the circle is Red. My colour is black to the blind, but the blue & gold are seen of the seeing. Also I have a secret glory for them that love me. 
But to love me is better than all things: if under the night stars in the desert thou presently burnest  mine incense before me, invoking me with a pure heart, and the Serpent flame therein, thou shalt come a  little to lie in my bosom. For one kiss wilt thou then be willing to give all; but whoso gives one particle of dust shall lose all in that hour. Ye shall gather go ods and store of women and spices; ye shall wear rich  jewels; ye shall exceed the nations of the earth in spendour & pride; but always in the love of me, and so shall ye come to my joy. I charge you earnestly to come before me in a single robe, and covered with a rich  headdress. I love you! I yearn to you! Pale or purple, veiled or voluptuous, I who am all pleasure and purple, and drunkenness of the innermost sense, desire you. Put on the wings, and arouse the coiled splendour within you: come unto me! 
At all my meetings with you shall the priestess say -- and her eyes shall burn with desire as she stands bare and rejoicing in my secret temple -- To me! To me! calling forth the flame of the hearts of all in her love-chant. 
Sing the rapturous love-song unto me! Burn to me perfumes! Wear to me jewels! Drink to me, for I love you! I love you! 
I am the blue-lidded daughter of Sunset; I am the naked brilliance of the voluptuous night-sky. 
To me! To me! 

Tuesday, April 26, 2016

My attitude towards life



I want people to celebrate when I go, not to cry. I want people to be happy. When your integration with the body is broken, you become one with nature. This is something to be celebrated. Why cry over it. That's my attitude towards life

Amritananda Natha Saraswati, 26 sept. 1934 - 10 oct. 2015

Better to do something


Guruji: There is much to be said regarding spiritual practice – but the question is, to what purpose? It is better do something rather than just discuss endlessly.
So begin your journey to the Goddess today, no matter how feebly. You can add power and depth as you move along.

You are born to be free!


The real temples made by God are our own bodies. They all house God’s Creative Matrix called Lalita. The name Lalita means Life, which plays in all states of our being: waking, dreaming, sleeping and beyond birth and death too in the form of life of cosmos. Each of us has organs of perception and action through which God/dess knows about the cosmos and acts on it to change it. Lalita manifests space and time; and powers of life in each limb. Her power to speak is called Saraswati, to nourish is called Sri-Bhu Devi, to destroy dark forces of disarray and create life is called Durga. As Durga she vanquishes demonic lust called Mahishasura, and converts it to playful love.
Without life, every limb is powerless. The power comes by blood coursing through the limbs, and awareness carried to them by currents called nadis. To do anything, we have to make the individual powers in the limbs come alive to manifest their full potential, beyond physical limits. Therefore all limbs are called Shakti Peethas, seats of power. Focusing attention on a limb while holding breath lends power to it. All practitioners of martial arts know this. Can we awaken the power in a limb if it is not known, seen or felt? It is asleep, dead. Powers have to be exposed and kneaded to awaken them; that is, they have to be necessarily nude.
Understand that your body is itself the great Sri Chakra. The Devis in it are all the powers of your own life waiting to be discovered and uncovered by you or with the help of others. Worship the Sri Chakra as your body: physical, mental, and beyond the limits of body and mind. You can’t go wrong.
Right now, we are mostly living like beasts of burden. Our main concerns are food, sleep, fear and sex. You have to rise above that, to the human levels of self-awareness first. Then, you have to extend your abilities and concerns to know and feel for others. That is what really makes you great, managing your destiny instead of being tossed in its rivers. That is the road map for you: beast to human, human to God. You must assert your divine nature.
You are the Goddess Life who has now journeyed to the most sacred Chakra, your own body. Assert that you are the Goddess. But are you aware of the implications of this assertion? You have to feel this truth, not just repeat what someone has told you. How can you convince yourself? Here is one way.
Receive Deeksha through a ritual by the Guru here.
What is Deeksha? First the Guru invokes the entire cosmos and its powers into you. The Powers of Fire, Sun, Moon; of creation, nourishment and destruction; of hiding and revelation. You are given the secrets of liberation and immortality. Then you receive puja by the Guru. That is right. To become a Goddess, the Guru must worship you. He will give you a bath. Anoint your body with sandal paste. Decorate you with garlands of letters and flowers. You receive puja just like the Goddesses here. Now you can truly say, I am the Goddess because the Guru has adored me.
But you are not the only Goddess. All are indeed Goddesses, whether they realize it or not. Is there any point in assuming a haughty attitude? The importance of Chakra Puja comes from this fact. Every one is a God-Goddess here. There is no high-low, up-down, right-left, front-back differences here. No distinctions based on caste, religion, color or race can enter here. All males are Siva, all females indeed Shakti. The Sri Chakra makes every one God-Power. It integrates unity with diversity, one with many in a unique way. It realizes the supreme value of fun as the why of life.
So there is no ritual higher or better than Chakra Puja. It is in all religions. Buddhists call it Kala Chakra. Christians call it Gaia. Hindus and Jains call it Ras-leela or Bhairavi Chakra. Sufi Muslims call it the whirling dance. No difference. It is the supreme circle, which has no beginning, no end; it is limited but also goes on and on forever. It is the ritual where every one overcomes their ego-centric limits, become God-Goddess like and dance freely in love creating islands of jewels in the oceans and skies.
Come to Devipuram. It is the Valley chosen by Devi to reveal Her Chakras. It is beautiful, wise and powerful. Learn the Circle rituals. Free yourself from self made bondage and free others to achieve beauty, wisdom and power like you.

Amritananda
Devipuram, 2003

For Gurupournami


(2006): Guruji:  I used to have visions of Goddess Lakshmi as miles and miles of silk sarees, passing over a fold. Some unknown light shone on the fold. Small strings of gold and silver would catch the light, glowed with all colours for fractions of a second, and new sets would keep doing the same. It was a fascinating sight! I wondered often what is it? Was it a demo of a string theory of the universe which physicists talk about? Or, is this connected to what sant Kabir used to talk about? Was I Kabir? I used to hear lovely Saraswati play on Veena for hours in meditations. Physical time, a few minutes. How can time dilatation happen with me travelling at earth speeds? Was I Brahma? I would listen enchanted. Why was I blessed to hear those wonderful musical extravaganzas and not blessed to be able to reproduce them for everyones benefit?

I used to play with great abandon so many lovely damsels, one called Hlaadini; me also being one of them? Was I Baala? why can't I show them to the world, even if they didn't wear any clothes? Out of this desire, came Devipuram as it exists today. . And now, Manidweepam. What am I supposed to do with that? I am not the only one getting those visions. Lots of people in fact.

All these things happened when I was just sitting, just being loved by Goddess in the ways described above.

Recently I came across this artcle on the internet. Liked it a lot. I edited it somewhat. It happened in Toronto. Thought it had something to do with my experiences. May be, it has some relevence for you too. With that hope, I will tell you about...


Listen to others


Guruji: Ask loving couples – The secret of their success is: they listen attentively when the other speaks. This is true of all relationships.
Father – Daughter,
Mother – Son,
Boy– Girl.
Why should I listen? I don’t know how bad I am. To know that, I should listen to someone who tells me. How else will I know?
Why don’t I listen?
1. I feel I am not doing anything by listening, so I jump in.
2.I think I know what they are saying.
3.I don’t realize that listening – passively – is a solution itself.

Why is listening a solution? When some one genuinely listens, they pay attention, we get attention, a form of currency. Receiving attention nourishes us; makes us feel - yes I am understood – enhances one self worth.

What can I do? It has become a habit for me not to listen. Break the habit. How? Quiet down and listen to yourself, just before you are about to jump in and interrupt. Worried that you will forget what you have to say? Ask how to wait, note down a point quietly, and listen again. Observe yourself as you walk away in anger or begin thinking of something.
Good luck and better friends! Payback guaranteed.

I saw Her...

 
Q: Do you believe in God?
 
Guruji:Yes. I do believe in God.
 
Q: Have you seen Him?
 
Guruji:  I saw Her…
 
Q: What was She like?
 
Guruji: At first I contemplated Her in a human form, as a form of Tripura Devi - Bala Sundari, Sarasvati, Hladini (Radha). I beheld - in reality - Kamakhya Devi, in the form of a young sexy girl. She always wanted to fold me in her arms, whenever I was alone in Devipuram.

Later, I contemplated the glowing circles and spheres, as yantras or shapes that resemble those that are used to test the ability to distinguish colors. Now I no longer contemplate Her in human form.
 
During the construction of the temple, from 1983 to 1994, I had a vision of 80% of the images of the Goddessess of Khadgamala stotra, such as you can see them depicted in the Devipuram temple. The remaining 20% is the vision of a sculptor, I involved him in Sri Vidya. Some people argue that they should not be so sexually provocative. If they had my experience, they would be surprised how much I played down how provocative are their true forms!
 
Now I see how perfect creative potential of Her is manifesting itself in different forms: varying images of the Beautiful, in all 3 dimensions. Each sequence is unique in its own way, each is perfect in its own way. I am very sorry that in any way I can not  capture them, and show them to you. Alas - to reproduce these varying forms, it would take thousands of lives of overwork! Perhaps when the technology will become more sophisticated, we will be able to see the experience in real time by recording the waves of thought with a million angles and correlating them into a coherent picture using the supercomputer. This could be corrected by people who have a similar experience "here and now". Until this time has not come, people have to be satisfied with statements of people such as myself, taking them for granted.
 
Q: Have you always had such beautiful visions? Never had ugly or frightening?
 
Guruji: Initially there was a certain amount of very frightening incidents. I think that they are connected with my past. Even now, sometimes I see very unpleasant things. For example, I can see that my body was dismembered and cut into pieces, or poeple that are near and dear to me are in trouble. Or the various natural disasters that cause a lot of damage.
Or I can just feel an unaccountable feeling of fear, and no matter what I do, this feeling does not go away. In this case, I can only experience it - and it goes away by itself. Or - it might kill me. I'm not worried about my possible death. Sometimes I associate it with a banal problem with the stomach or hyperacidity. Now I understand the importance of moderate, sattvic foods.
 
Q: You have shown openly nude images of goddesses. Don't you think that it will turn away many people who sincerely want to visit the beautiful temple in Devipuram? Not many people recognize that it is possible to worship images of naked goddesses. Many people are ashamed of their bodies, and do not accept the bodies of beautiful goddesses that they see here. 
 
Guruji: Oh yes, it's always been a problem! It is difficult to make even a married couple to recognize that their bedroom can also be a temple, and that the Goddess is enjoying their love games, because She - is  the life in them. People turn images of deities or Guru, to face the wall in the bedroom, while having sex, believing that the deity does not see them!  
 

Monday, April 25, 2016

Conversations on Guru Garu’s Passing Away




Guruji: My Guruji passed away yesterday at 6pm. I just attended his final rites. I had gone to visit him at 10 a.m. on Tuesday. He had been refusing to eat. But when we went he took some food and had coffee. He looked quite happy and blessed us. 

Alok: Did he know that he was going to be passing away in a few hours? 

Guruji: He must have as he was giving me a lot of love and was very happy to see me. In fact lot of his dear ones were with him due to Guru Poornima. He told his son to give all his pictures to me.

Alok: Did you know that he was going to be no more in a few hours after your meeting with him? 

Guruji: When I was meeting him I got the feeling that this was the last time I was going to meet him. 

Alok: Guruji, Guru Poornima is today. Was yesterday (when he passed away) also Guru Poornima day?

Guruji: Actually Guru Poornima started at 1pm yesterday. So 6 p.m. yesterday was Guru Poornima. 6 p.m. is Sandhya time which is auspicious in spiritual context and especially for tantric tradition. I only found out about his passing away at 11 a.m. today (Wednesday) and quickly went to attend the last rites ceremony. His body was taken in sitting position and then buried amidst sounds/music of celebration. Guru Garu's son broke a coconut on the head of Guru Garu before the burial was performed. The burial is the way Sannayasi's and realized people's bodies are finally put to rest. 

Alok: Was the burial done in Devipuram? 

Guruji: No, they had already decided of a spot for the burial before I got there and I did not wish to create any inconvenience by suggesting anything different. I was perfectly fine with their arrangements. 

Alok: Do you miss Guru Garu? 

Guruji: No I won’t miss him that much. This morning when I got up on Guru Poornima day I did not know of his passing away. As I was walking up the steps of the Meru Temple it was simply a beautiful day. The sun was coming out of the clouds and shinning beautifully on the temple. All the nearby hills and peaks were visible so clearly. The atmosphere was really heavenly and the birds were chirping. I remarked to myself as I was going to the temple - what a perfect day to have Guru Poornima. Within a few hours after that I found out about Guru Garu's passing away. Later in I the evening I realized that my Guru was giving me a beautiful darshan this morning. It was a perfect end to a perfect life. He has merged with nature, isn’t it?  
 
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Alok: It was so nice that you could meet Anakapalli Guru Garu just the day of his passing. 

Guruji-Amma: Somehow I was feeling this urgent urge inside to see Anakapalli Guru Garu (AGG) since the day before. I have never felt like this before. In fact, I rarely have gone to see him even on Guru Poornima day. But this time there was this strong feeling that I should go and see him. I could not explain it. I kept telling Guruji that I want to go to see AGG. It was like I wanted to go that moment itself. Guruji was tied up with guests and visitors due to Guru Poornima and I wasn’t sure if he would be able to go. So I even told him - if you cant go I will take the driver and car and go to see him (Alok's note - If you know Guruji Amma, this is a very unusual thing for her to suggest, let alone act on. From the way she told me I could sense that she would have gone anyway even if Guruji could not come along). Guruji immediately came along and we went to see AGG.  

Alok: He was in the hospital?

Guruji-Amma: Yes he was quite weak and in the hospital. But he was able to recognize us - no problem. He even smiled and had something. He allowed me to touch his feet. I have touched Guru Garu's feet only 2 times - once in Devipuram when he was visiting he called me and asked me to wash his feet and this was the second time.

Alok: Will he be born again?

Guruji-Amma: (shaking her head) No. He is gone. You should have seen his eyes.

Alok: You mean you saw his body after death?

Guruji-Amma: Yes I went for his burial. His eyes were wide open. There was so much power in his eyes and face (then in typical Guruji-Amma style she acts out the expression full of childlike glee).

Alok: Do you miss him?

Guruji-Amma: Not like that. I rarely used to go to meet him. (Laughing and waving her hands) He is my Guru.

Message from Guruji on Triveni Kalpam




The IDEA is to spread awareness in young minds that Devipuram helps them connect to their own inner divinity through pujas. Devipuram also tries to give them a taste of how it feels to be worshipped like a Goddess or God. Once the young minds feel that, they will start empowering themselves and society. Bonding to goals of Devipuram (which is empowering spiritual connections for harmony) will develop. 
 
What is spirituality?
The clear answer can be found in Upanishads. "Asato ma sadgamaya = move me to truth from untruth, tamaso ma jyotir gamaya= move me from darkness to light, mrityor ma amritam gamaya= move me from death to life, om santih santih santih= peace be to self, environment and for gods to be" is the meaning of spirituality. Among them, life is easily the most important. For, without life, nothing is important. And enthusiasm, enjoyment and vitality, are verily the juices of life. 

Preamble: Every person who is young and growing embodies many great qualities of life such as innocence, enthusiasm, freshness, passion and love (of beauty, music, dance, power, intensity, intellect, curiosity, and adventure). Most progress has its origins in innovation, seeking fun, curiosity and adventure. These are the qualities that make life worth living. They are divine and deserve to be promoted. Recognising and bringing out the divinity in a person enhances vitality, the quality of life. This process is called adoration, gratitude, or bhakti.

I have watched and enjoyed many times the Sri Venkateswara Bhakti Channel showing middle aged, male priests doing abhishekam to Sri Devi, Bhudevi, and the gorgeous muslim woman Nanchari loved by Lord Venkatesha. The priests most lovingly poured the five nectars: milk, curds, ghee, honey and fruit juices, on the bodies of the adorable Devis, applied sandal paste, dressed and decorated them with flowers and ornaments with loving care. Enchanting light karnatic music of Annamayya was playing in the background. How fortunate these pandits are!

I often used to wonder what would the priests do if the icons they were handling suddenly came alive? Would they run away? Or would they enjoy even more? These thoughts haunted me. In my mind's eye, the deities were alive; they were experiencing the feel of flowing fluids over their bodies, reacting to the hot and cold touches, enjoying the flowers and perfumes of sandal pastes, and enjoying the attention immensely, and blessing the people who are giving them so much recognition and happiness. If this was not true there wouldn't be any point in doing the puja, right?

If we are to believe the Upanishads which declare with one voice, that the " Body is the temple in which God lives and his life is the Goddess. The Goddess expresses her different powers in different organs. So, keep the body and mind clean and fit for the Goddess of life to live. " 
There is absolutely no reason why bhakti should be confined to icons of god/desses alone. I think it may have been be a mistake to do so. It is the right of every living person to be adored as a God/dess and then to live up to it. The more you assert the right and demand it, the better it will be for all. Because, when all of us are recognised and grow to be gods and goddesses, the society grows. Bhakti, adoration, appreciation, gratitude, expressed through recognition rituals holds the single most important key to empowering the society. It converts every being in it to a god. The society becomes an assembly of Gods. To empower a disciple, the Guru has to recognise and worship the divinity in the disciple. This is the real function of every Guru. 

Everyone craves for recognition. If we satisfy it, it becomes divine resource development programme, not merely a human resource development. In fact, hrd is a part of drd. Are there examples of such pujas in our culture? Yes, indeed. In Kamakhya Assam, there is the tradition of worshipping a 5-year-old girl as the Goddess until she atttains puberty. She is the presiding Goddess for the period. In Bengal, there are many sects who worship girls (kanya puja) and women (suvasini puja). Even some monks of Ramakrishna Mission do it in private. In South India, we do vratams, and honour the ladies with gifts, saying, "the giver is who? gowri devi. The receiver is who? Gowri Devi" When people take (deeksha) empowerment, they are not called by their personal names anymore, but by the deeksha names, such as "swamy, bhavani, brother, padre, etc. " The idea that we are gods is deeply ingrained in our minds. It is hard to find the name of a person that is not of a God or Goddess. When we read gotra namas, it sounds as an ashtottaram or sahasram. In Devipuram we do a puja called Triveni to all who request it. 

Triveni puja can be done in public. It is very attractive to watch, and is thoroughly enjoyed by the worshippers and worshipped alike. We have tried this puja in public as well as in private. We have tried it in marriage functions. Including the bride and groom, 2500 people received pujas at the same time in a recent marriage in Amalapuram and one in Hyderabad. In every such instance, besides the enjoyment and fun, the persons who received the puja and bath with milk, curds, ghee, honey, and friut juices invariably felt going out of the body to some place of transcendent peace, so enjoyable that they took some time to come out of it. In short they have experienced some state of samadhi, nirvana or transcendence. 

Now I feel confident that this works in most cases. I want to take this wonderful process to large numbers of people, because it can deliver the most desirable results in a most pleasant way in least possible time. Once a person experiences transcendence, there is no going back, no need to believe, because it is a reality for the person. They will be pulled into spirituality in a strong current of Bhava Samadhi, which ultimately benefits society. 

Devipuram is organising public pujas every friday, giving a chance for 8 adults or couples to experience transcendence. The feeling at the pujas is festive, yet pious. Each person or couple receives the following pujas in sequence. First all their psychic lotuses are activated using vibrations of mantras. Cosmic powers of Fire, Sun and Moon are invoked into their genital, heart, and cosmic communications chakras. Powers of all beings living on earth, in oceans, hot regions, air and space are invoked into chakras 1 to 5. Time and eternal life are invoked into the command and life chakras. All invocations are done with vibrations of mantras and nyasa. Mahavakyas are given to write off all sins committed so far, and to begin a new spiritual life full of Rasa. 

Then a most lovable bath and beauty session begins. While music flows, a head bath with panchamritas is given, followed by shampoo, facial beauty treatments, fashion dresses and wearing ornaments brought by participants themselves. Puja with Khadgamala, treating their body as a Sri Chakra follows. A beautiful arati concludes the puja. The people who had these pujas done to them report amazing results. A full charging of all chakras and stability in transcendental experience requires about 7 consecutive immersions committing one week every year for your contact with divinity. 

To establish divinity in yourself fully a few suggestions, call them recommendations if you wish, can be made. 

1. Just as God lives in you, you live in your home. Just as you make your body and mind fit for God to live, you make your home and things in it fit for you to live. Therefore throw or give away things which you don't use like old clothes, and other articles. This creates more space and order for you to find things you want easily. It saves time. Also, give your home a thorough cleaning making it a part of the ritual. 

2. The ritual symbolises purification. Try consciously to remain pure in thought, word and deed. Remember, purity does not mean you should make yourself miserable in any way. 

3. Like gods, you belong to everybody and everybody belongs to you. You commit to be happy and to make others happy. Let go a little from your abundance to give to others, fast a little to feed others, and pray a little for better life to all. Set apart 1 week's wages (about 2% of earnings) for giving others. 

4. Try to minimise speaking and internal chatter. It will help in listening to your own thoughts and discovering what is causing anger and hurt in you. These little acts go a long way to focus on well being of all. It supports you in everyway. You will also realise that the world is your family. 

I strongly urge you to make use of the opportunities at Devipuram to begin with and get an initiation into divinity through an unforgettable puja experience all your own. The pujas are available only for adults above 18 years of age. I invite you to make use of the excellent opportunities presented by Devipuram. Stay at Devipuram for a week, charge up your batteries fully and return. If you help in this process, there is a possibility that this can become a great movement, a divine mission on earth. 

Love,
Amritananda

Hug me Teacher

  (poem on Guru, written by Guruji):

Teacher, I am tired of doing things by myself. I just want to sleep in your embrace. I find solace there only, I think.

Your deep unconditional love envelops me like a sheath of nectar sending waves of soothing lights to my tension ridden body and mind.

In your embrace, let me forget the world. Let me forget who I am.

Beloved Guru, you are a true teacher. Genuine to the core. No expectaions of returns. Just love and acceptance of who I am,as I am.

Sing to me the lullabies of stars. Teach me how to serve and dance like angels.

Teach me how to be forever immersed in divine love and light through embrace.

Teach me the real purpose of my life and how to accomplish it.

Teach me how to fly on wings of love and service.

Teach me how to silence my ego to accomplish the divine purpose assigned to me.

Beloved Guruji, move me from apathy to passion, emptiness to wisdom.

Be with me, always.

Maha Siva Ratri



Guruji:  Maha Siva Ratri commemorates the day when the great Lingam of Siva appeared before all the gods and demons. Since the Lingam extended from the netherworlds to the ends of far galaxies, all the gods and demons were utterly perplexed, as they could not discover it’s beginning or end. In a spirit of competition, Brahma set out to find the top of the Lingam, and Vishnu went to find the bottom, but however far they traveled, they could not find the ends of the Lingam. Then Brahma saw a leaf falling down, and he asked the leaf, “From where have you fallen?” The leaf replied, “I don't know.” Brahma requested the leaf to tell a lie that it had fallen from the top of the Lingam. When Brahma and Vishnu met again, Vishnu admitted that he had not found the bottom of the Lingam. Then Brahma told Vishnu, “Neither have I seen the top of the Lingam, but I have seen this leaf which has fallen from the top. Therefore, it is equivalent to seeing the top.” Vishnu agreed that he had been defeated. With his divine vision, however, Siva saw that Brahma had lied about the leaf’s falling from the top of his Lingam. Enraged at the lie, Siva cut off the top head of the five heads of Brahma. Since then, Brahma came to be known in his four-headed form. Brahma cursed Siva that he would not be entitled to receive puja in his total form, but should receive puja only in the form of his Lingam. After all this had occurred, all the gods and demons prayed to Siva, chanting the vedic mantras of Rudra Prasna. Pleased with their devotion, Siva spoke these words of assurance: “If anyone worships me with devotion at the time of my linga's arising, they will be freed from all the limitations and bondage of samsara, and they will be absorbed into my cosmic Lingam, which is ever blissful.”
 
This story is from the Linga Purana. The day commemorating this great occurrence is known as “Maha Siva Ratri,” and the time is called “Lingodbhava Kalam.” On this night, everyone worships the Lingam with vedic, non-vedic, or no mantras, keeping awake all night in the presence of the Lord. There is also the story of a lascivious person who worshipped Siva’s Lingam in the form of the breast of a prostitute. That person attained liberation, and the village in Andhra Pradesh where he lived came to be known as “Achanta,” which means “breast.” These stories of Siva as the procreative force and destroyer of evil are well-known.  
 

What is the meaning and moral of this story? Brahma represents the five-dimensional world, which was its original form. The four dimensions of time and space are commonly known. The fifth dimension of total awareness is denied to Brahma, because he violated the principle of truth by telling a lie. Henceforth, Brahma could only make creations of limited intelligence. Total truth can only be known by accepting the Lingam that goes from the depths of the netherworlds to the heights of space. This feeling is echoed in the Isavasya Upanishad, where it is said: By avidya (external worship), cross the bounds of death, and by vidya (internal worship), attain immortality. Both are needed. The Upanishad warns that if you follow only one way, either internal or external worship, you will enter a great abyss-like void of darkness. In this life, only Siva Puja on Maha Siva Ratri can take you out of the cosmic abyss.  Maha Siva Ratri is the day when people will be lifted from the void and made into “light” beings. Hence, the Jyotir (light) Linga Pujas are performed.  

Diwali 2003, Message from Guruji



 Experience of Devi on Diwali  25-10-03 4.15 am:

Started with some allergy. Locked on to anahata, coming and going like waves.
 
I was dragged in a current of thought, co-existing with anahata.
 
Started wondering about the grand question: is matter a combination of space and time or is it an independent entity? Energy having dimensions MLT-2,  can matter be a combination of space and time?
 
The image of Rei-ki symbol flashed, shokure, or its sanskrit interpretation sakala. the symbol sakala, which starts off as a horizontal line x axis, sharply becomes  vertical time axis and then spirals in to center. A galaxy forming out of time and space interactions. It magnifies your intent to heal.
 
Take x, t space. Consider a square in that. Where t is constant and x varies, it is wave like, existing at more than one point. Where x is constant,  t varies, it is like a particle that is born, lives, dies.
 
Consider a circle in x, t space. it is showing space and time constantly becoming each other. How many different pictures can i draw in space time?
 
With time constant, can space x be considered moving? What is space moving? Isn't movement a property of time?
 
Space and time: where do they exist?  They are in my mind.
 
Space, time cant be independent of mind.
 
What is motion?
 
It is a locus of thought in the mind.
 
The program director springs to my mind. you create a movie by assembling objects (images, vector graphics) in space and time dimensions, limiting them in whatever ways I desire. existence on stage is defined by extent in time lines. sounds mix space and time in linear ways. animations mix it in more complex ways, allowing going back and forth merrily in time through subjective interactions called lingo and behaviors. It all seems to be trajectories of properties of objects in the space of program.
 
I seem throttled. I don't have the lingo to express thoughts independent of somehow referring to time. Words like change, flow, verbs, predicates, force me into saying things in the lingo of linear time, where as reality seems to have no such limitations. What am I to do,  how am I going to communicate, if language is denied? I feel I am an inarticulate speck of sand on the shore of an ocean trying to describe the ocean I am seeing to the world. Pitiable pettiness grips my throat. "Yato vaacha nivartante apraapya manasa saha" - a sanskrit  quote meaning " from where words returned being unable to show the immensity." 
 
I sought the grace. O mother, when will you lift me out of pettiness?
 
Then i saw mother.  What beauty, what perfection, what harmony, what richness! I saw her bright form, I saw her dark form. Pastel shades, and dark hues. Infinite variety tapestry of beauty upon beauty expressing  in excellence, in perfection. Vector graphic faces in the most beautiful colours from every culture, every time. Perfection personified. Crystals, facets, jewels, rainbow colors, vying with each other to come, display their fashion, show and vanish. Fleeting instances of glory. Lasted about 20 minutes.

What is the way  to such a blissful experience of mother? Surrender to silence and keep aspiration alive in you. That is the way. A constant commitment to beauty. Unletting dedication to truth and loving all. These are some of the ways. I know I cant make you see what I saw. But I am sure of somethings: 

We are going to see beauty, harmony, peace, richness, prosperity come to this world like never before. You are going to witness it in your life times. Love is going to open up in mighty rivers. Crime will not pay. Pettiness will go. You will love everyone as you love your own children.
 
I love you. I will give you  peace. That is a promise. I cannot make you see Her. I will do my best, but that is something that you have to earn.
 
What is a way? When I switch on a computer, and the monitor, the programs come alive. I interact and work on new programs. Is the computer, power switch, the way to my experience of the programs (or whatever)? The guru is like that. It is just an enabling device. Without it there is no experience of program. With it, it is not guaranteed. However the conditions are  (1) having the computer, electricity and programs, and (2) your willingness to sit in front of it and work. Given these two, results are not guaranteed, but conditions have been met for them to occur. Finally, you are the architect of your realization.

Amrita
Deepavali 25th October, 2003

The use of aḥ, aḥm vs. aṃ aḥ- the 15 nd 16th letters in the Sanskrit vowels.



Guruji: The preference is “aḥ, aḥm” because adding the sound “m” to “aṃ” makes it “aḥ”; to “aḥ” makes it “aḥm”. Every bīja ends with an “m” which connects with Mother to get its power. The last two vowels (śakti bījas) are “aṃ” and “aḥ”. When we add “m” (which is another bindu) to “aṃ” it becomes “aḥ”; similarly “aḥ” becomes “aḥm” (pronounced aham). Thus the last two vowel bījas get differentiated from the first two. Aham is a great mantra called kāma-kalā. This has many shades of meanings. A is negation, stands for zero. Ha is visarga, two zeros. M ends everything into silence, it is also a zero. Aham can be read vertical down as a circle for face, two circles for breasts and one more for a zero, the source (womb) of all zeros. This is called kāma-kalā.

Elaborated by Ādi Śaṅkarā in his śloka:
mukhaṃ binduṃ kṛtvā kuca-yugam adhas tasya tad-adho
harārdhaṃ dhyāyed yo hara-mahiṣi te manmatha-kalām.

It means: Make a circle for face, two circles below for breasts, an oval for womb and meditate on this kāma-kalā.

It is the pañcadaśī (manmatha is the ṛṣi) Kāma-kalā is brahmavidyā. Top (circle) zero is an illusion. Creation of a triads whose sum is zero like for example: 1,0, -1; pi,0, -pi; x,o,-x; t,0,-t: good, 0, bad; all triads are illusions. The whole drama of the world is an illusion. The only truth is śūnya, the zero, which contains all of cosmos, which is itself śūnya. Thus Buddhists call this shunya, Hindus call it pūrṇa. Meditation on kāma-kalā leads to this realization. Me, world, śivā, śakti are all illusions. This is the greatest vidyā. I don’t exist. So I cannot be created, nor destroyed. Time, space, matter, knowledge, action don’t exist. This has been called Mokṣa.
 The final release. Aksharas (letters) “a” to “ksha” aren’t just aksharas - it is a Saraswathi mantra in itself. When I give the mantra during Deeksha to a disciple, it becomes beejaksharas, else it remains only as aksharas. Grace is matched by effort. Effort nil, grace nil.

New breathing technique


[Revealed by Guruji, year 2001, at the Guru Purnima celebration at Sri Rajarajeswari Temple, Rush, New  York. Guruji mentioned this unique breathing process was given to him by Devi herself to be passed on to her devotees and will enhance the process to realizing the Devi in oneself. This breathing technique is significantly different from all other techniques that have been published, until  now, given that there is no pause or holding the breath in between the inhaling and exhaling rhythms. This is to be practiced at least once a day either in the morning or evening. If time permits it can be done  twice a day—morning and evening].


PROCESS


Position yourself into a very relaxed and comfortable position; you could be seated or lying down.
Keep both your hands loosely to your side; legs and/or feet not crossed.
Inhaling will be only via the nose; mouth closed.
Exhaling only via mouth.
While inhaling or exhaling focus on the tip of your nose -this would help focusing on your breathing.

Iteration 1

Step 1
Inhale slowly, as slow as you can, in a very relaxed manner until your lungs are at least 80 % full. You may go the
full 100% if you wish to. You should now feel your whole thorax section inflated. Immediately, without pause (no  kumba), start exhaling, again as slowly as long you can, visualizing that you getting rid of all tensions and pain (You may think or even make the sound “Ah............ah”), until you have emptied your lungs. Feel that you are rid  of all tensions and totally relaxed.

Step 2

DO NOT PAUSE OR CATCH  YOUR BREATH (no kumba)
Repeat step 1.

Step3
 
DO NOT PAUSE OR CATCH  YOUR BREATH (no kumba)
Repeat step 1.

Now you would have completed the three steps per cycle. You may now pause and catch your breath. Repeat cycles with step 1, 2 and 3 two more times and thus  completing three cycles and the three steps thrice. You may pause and catch your breath after each cycle.
Start Iteration 2.

Iteration 2

Step 1
Inhale slowly mentally intoning “Sooo....” as slow as you can in a very relaxed manner until your lungs are at least 80% full.  You may go the full 100% if you wish to.  You should now feel your whole thorax section inflated. Immediately, without pause (no kumba), start to exhale, mentally intoning “Hamm.........” again as slowly as long you  can, until you have emptied your lungs.

Step 2

DO NOT PAUSE OR CATCH  YOUR BREATH (no kumba).
Repeat step 1.

Step3

DO NOT PAUSE OR CATCH  YOUR BREATH (no kumba).
Repeat step 1.

Now you would have completed the three steps per cycle. You may now pause and catch your breath. Repeat cycles with step 1, 2 and 3 two more times and thus completing three cycles and the three steps thrice. You  may pause and catch your breath after each cycle. Total of 18 cycles from Iteration 1 and Iteration 2.
Start Iteration 3.

Iteration 3

Step1

Inhale slowly as slow as you can in a very relaxed manner until your lungs are at least 80 % full. You may go the  full 100% if you wish to.  You should now feel your whole thorax section inflated. Immediately, without pause (no  kumba), start to exhale,  mentally intoning “Aummm.....”.
Again as slowly  as long you can, until you  have emptied your lungs.

Step 2

DO NOT PAUSE OR  CATCH YOUR BREATH  (no kumba).
Repeat step 1.

Step3

DO NOT PAUSE OR  CATCH YOUR BREATH  (no kumba).
Repeat step 1.

Now you would have  completed the three steps  per cycle. You may now pause and catch your breath. Repeat cycles with step 1, 2 and 3 two more times and thus completing three cycles and the three steps thrice. You  may pause and catch your breath after each cycle, thus completing another nine cycles making a total of 27 cycles from the three Iterations.

You may feel lightheaded or dizzy the first few days immediately after exercising this breathing technique, due to a  blast of oxygen into your system. Do not fear to continue. One will find it rewarding—benefits include stress relief,  increase of oxygen dispersion into your body, blood pressure regulated to acceptable readings, and reduction of  pulse rate.

from Guru Pournami message 2006


Dear friend,

I am praying to divine Mother Sri Sri Sri Sahasrakshi Rajarajeswari Devi of Devipuram to guide you, be with you, in you, to fulfill your desires and concerns.

As you may know, Devipuram is a Global Resource for Goddess Worship, housing Devi in a grand Sri Chakra Meru, the biggest in the world you can actually walk into, and meet all Navavarana Devis alive. Their names are given in Khadgamala, but their forms are revealed for worship for the first time here. All people irrespective of caste or religion can enter the temple here.

The main ideas of Devipuram are

1. Your body is the real temple in which Mother Goddess lives as life,
2. Every part of your body made by the Goddess holds hidden powers that can be brought out through rituals and meditations involving effort and relaxation,
3. Thereby Goddess helps you to gain knowledge of, gather implements, and manifest the future of your dreams pretty much as you like, rewriting destiny if necessary.

If you make these ideas a part of your mindset, then the magic starts happening. The real Devipuram is your body, and Devi manifests from there.

Other supporting ideas are: the world is old, very old; and big, very big; it needed to be this old and this big to make the life creating substances; it has taken many millions of years to evolve life to the human condition; its goal is divinity, not the grave; life is precious; love sustains it; it is very costly to throw away the existing body to make a fresh one. We can't really afford to hate life, throw it away; exploit the living, and reap unbearable consequences. It is far better to love and live than to hate and die. It is so simple to give and get love. It is so easy to go hug and get hugged by every one. It is only our minds which say, "No, it is not done". I request you to consider and adopt if you like, the following three simple steps to make yourself a loving and caring Devi, speaking and acting through you.

Give small gifts, any gifts to five people every day.

1. It may be a smile, a hug, reading a story, singing a song, dancing, giving a flower, or sending a wave of love to some one you don't like .
2. Make a plan for tomorrow for 6 jobs, each of which takes about half an hour. The first job is always there, giving the gifts. Tick each item off the list after trying it sincerely. Post them for next day if left undone.
3. Breathe "in" 1 unit of time, "out" 1 unit evenly for 5 minutes, and then meditate. Simply watch the breath for 35 minutes as it goes in and out. Thoughts keep coming; cut them out as they keep coming.

*These simple steps are enough to connect you to Devi's immense power of loving manifestations.

Guru Pournami is the day when all devotees assemble physically or mentally at the Guru's place to pay homage to their Guru. Why? Because, like a mother the Guru has given the devotee a birth, a spiritual birth through five levels of empowerment in Panchadasi Mantra. He has put you on a path of self discovery, empowering the divine love and beauty in you. He thinks and works constantly for the welfare of all. You are all members of his family, Gurukulam.

What is Pakodi Loop


It is 26th March 2006  around 8.30pm. Close to 10 devotees are having dinner in Devipuram canteen. Guruji is also sitting and enjoying fresh vegetables with slightly roasted brown bread and other low calory dishes. Everyone is enjoying that day's surprise delicacy - the sour cut-cucumber pickle with rice, made by the volunteers in canteen. Suddenly there comes a question from Guruji and everyone starts paying attention to Him. The question is difficult to answer, as it is slightly scientific. "How do you fry something without oil?". Guruji continues,"If a person wants to eat some fried pakodi and he should not eat fried stuff, what does he do?". The question makes everyone start thinking. There is silence for two minutes. No answers yet.

After sometime, Guruji Himself breaks the silence. "If this person eats away some fried Pakodis and goes back in time to the state, in which he was there before eating pakodis and erases his pakodi eating experience and comes back to present, would it help him ? By this, he eats pakodis and still be able to be in the state of no-pakodis-eating-whatsoever.Slight time management does the trick."

Guruji continues, "If one is so fond of eating pakodis and still likes to remain unaffected, he can experience the above two states continuously by being in a loop, the Pakodi Loop". Everyone bursts into laughter. Guruji is known for his subtle sense of humour and this "pakodi loop" words came during what seemed to be a highly scientific conversation. One of Guruji's disciples in the dining hall tells, "Guruji, bless us all with this siddhi. It'd be so nice". Guruji says "It is Kali, who can bless everyone with this siddhi to manage one's time".

This short informative and humorous explanation by Guruji put everyone in "let me think more deeply" mode. Still lot of people were laughing out at this funny and techie-buzzword "Pakodi Loop" used by Guruji. It was a memorable dinner for everyone to hear this short discourse of Guruji explaining "time management".

Maha Shodashi Mahamantra - A new view


(article is written by Atmanandanatha, and was located on devipuram.com)
 
Maha sodasi- A New view

The Srividya mantra sastra give the utmost importance to Sri Sodasi Mahamantra – the sixteen lettered Maha mantra – ‘Rajyam deyam siro deyam na deyam Sri SodasAkshari’ give away your empire or even your head (i.e. give up your life itself) never reveal the Sodasakshari mantra. It is kept in most secret, hidden from view of general or even initial level initiates. In Upanishats (both tripura and devi) the uddara (sequential revelation)  of Pancadasi ( the fifteen lettered mantra)  is found viz. ‘kamo yoni kamakala…’, also Sri Bhagavat pada sankara in saundaryalahari talks of the Pancadasi – ‘siva sakthi kamah….’ Rahasya nama sahasra unfolds this mantra step by step –‘AtmavidyA mahAvidA srividyA kAmasevita Sri SodasAksharI vidyA’. Parasurama in his kalpasutra has hidden it, no direct reference is found.
Generally Sri Bala Maha mantra is imparted along with Maha Ganapati mantra for the entry level initiate, then he proceeds to the Pancadasi Maha mantra – the fifteen lettered mantra. In South Indian traditions the laghu Sodasi mantra- the sixteen lettered- is also imparted. Finally at purnabhisheka, Maha Sodasi mantra is imparted. Certain traditions prohibit the verbal transmission of the mantra Maha Sodasi by Sri Guru, he is directed to write in sand or paddy or rice on plate and immediately clear it and he can verbally pronounce the mantra on constant prayer from the disciple only once in small tone.

In tantras of Sri Kula the Gnanarnava and paramanandatantra reveal this mantra; this mantra is mentioned in the Srividya ratna sutras, attributed to Sri Gaudapada, the paramaguru of Bhagavat pada sankara, as of 28 letters. The three kutas of pancadasi in the middle will have to be considered as three, instead of fifteen, to bring the count to sixteen. Thus justifying the name Sodasi given to this Maha mahtra.. There is hidden mention of this in sakthi mahimna stotra of Durvasa maharishi in the first verse
‘srI mAtah tripure parAtparatare devI trilokI mahA
sawndaryArNava manthanodbhava sudhA prAcurya varNojjvalam
udyatbhAnu sahasra nUtana japApuShpaprabham te vapuh
svAnte me sphuratu trikoNanilayam jyotirmayam vAngmayam’.
 {‘srI’ is lakshmi bija, ‘mA’ ia hrllekha bija; ‘ath’ means after that; ‘tripura’ is bala in a different order; ‘I’ is pranava; ‘para’ is hrllekha; ‘ paratara is laskhmi bija; trilokI is panacadasi; mahAsawndarya is parabija; ‘arNavamantha….jjvalam’ is vag bija; udyatbhAnu…prabham’ is manmatha bija; te vapuh is hrllekha; svAnte means in the end; ‘me’ can be split as mA+I where in mA is lakshmi bija nad I is the essence of this mantra kamakala}. We can also find it coded in rajarajesvari astaka in the lines ‘panaca praNava dvi repha janani’ (panca refers to the five sakthi bijas, then pranava which is Omkara, then two of the aforesaid sakthi bijas with ‘r’ {repha is agni bija} – the maya and sri bijas, then janani refers to pancadasi maha mantra and finally the reverse of initial five bijas is inferred) All this secrecy is lost now, we can find this mantra in all SriVidya printed texts.
Let us examine the word ‘SodashAksharI’ with ‘KaTaPaYadi’ secret code technique. ‘Sa’ denotes six, ‘Da is three, ‘sha’ is five, ‘ksha’ is zero and ‘ra’ is two. On the whole we get a count of sixteen; the zero in the middle will signify that this mantra is parama ‘pujya’. Thus the name itself holds the identity of the number of bijas in this mantra. The sequence also is inferred by the numbers said above; by adding six and two the first eight bijas are realised, next three refers the pancadasi kutas and five to the bijas at the end. (The name of the adored deity LalitAmbika when decoded with the above technique will be 3+3+6+ 3+1=16)
Why is there such a hue and cry for the secrecy? Any special status for this combination of bijas is there? Initiates in this Maha mantra think that this is an expansion of the pancadasi only.
There is a very special reason behind this importance being given to this mantra. We shall now explore into the meaning of this chain of bijas initially and their import on the sadhaka by this japa.
Verbal meaning
a.The traditional view
The following is found in olden texts wherein the sequence of bijas is explained.
‘sriIm’ denotes the Parasiva sate wherein the prakasa and vimarsa are inherent.
‘hrIm’ denotes the creative urge in the un-manifested.
‘klIm’ denotes the start of the process of creation with the  maya tatva by parabrahman
‘aim’ the Parabrahman with the Ego- consciousness.
‘sauh’ The ardhanarisvara, ‘sa’ denotes the  active male principle – the siva  which creates and the fourteenth vowel (au)  denotes the sakti which causes this creation and visraga(:) denotes the created universe.
‘om’ the divine couple parvati paramesavara
‘hrIm’ the divine couple vani and brahma
‘srIm’ the divine couple lakshmi and narayana
‘ka 5’ is the prayer to remove the ignorance
‘ha 6’ is the emergence of the identity with Brahman
‘sa 4’ is the attainment of the undivided consciousness after removal of all stains
(See pancadasakahsri article for a more detailed explanation)
‘sauh aim’ the universe in the form of fire, Sun and moon
‘klIm hrIm’ the five elements which make up this universe ( k- water, l – earth, h- space and r the fire, air is inferred)
‘srIm’ the bija denotes the individual who enjoys this universe, he prays to the Universal consciousness as above and realises that he is not different from the Brahman.
b. A new view
The new view was revealed by Brahmasri G Venkata Narasaiah of Guhanada Mandali.  The meditation of the mantra will follow the path of kamakala of which is creation, sustenance, prayer of the aspirant and final dissolution into the Parabrahman. Following is whatsoever was grasped by the mind due to the grace of Sri Guru.
‘srIm’ the first bija will represent the Parabrahman after a cycle of creation, sustenance and dissolution, so this is after dissolution of time .which can be likened to a wave less sea.
‘hrIm’ now the spanda-movement for creation starts, this is the primordial urge to  create, which can be called the iccha sakti.
‘klIm’ this will represent creation of thirty five tatvas from sakthi symbolized by ‘k’ to prthvi symbolized by ‘l’ by the Kamakala ‘I’. This is subtle creation, the gynana sakti
‘aim’ – this will be the first gross element space, which is characterized by sound – the vowel ‘aim’ is the creative force. This is kriya sakti.
‘Sauh’- this tells us the reason for this creation. This bija is called the hrdaya –heart bija of Sri Devi, which is full of compassion without expectations (avyaja karuNa) and Leela of devi to create a stage as before (yatha pUravamakalpayan) for the jivas in the previous cycle of creation to enjoy their merit and de-merit (papa / puNya) and finally try to get salvation from this cycle of birth and re-birth.
‘Om’ will symbolize the Parvati paramesvara couple. Since they were the last to dissolve into the parabrahman during dissolution, they will emerge first during creation.
‘hrIm’ will symbolize the Vani Brahma couple, the creator.
‘srIm’ will symbolize the Lakshmi- Vishnu couple, the controller of the world drama. This also signifies the heart knot (hrdaya granthi) which is the cause for the individual to be tied to this body consciousness.
This individual who is in the ocean of samsara, on search of eternal bliss will surrender to the guru who takes him step by step to the final destination of universal bliss. This path of srividya is shown by the Sri Guru. The first kuta is a prayer by the aspirant ‘ka-5’ – Oh! Parabrahma svarupini~ please remove the veil of duality; ‘ha-6’ please grant the knowledge that the whole world is Siva sakti svarupa; ‘sa-4’ please let me remain in this state always and remove this state of knowing to permanent bliss. (Please see article on panacadasi mantra meaning)
‘sauh’ will signify the grace of Sri Guru as said above
‘aim’ denotes the four Maha vakyas instructed by him ( see nivasatu hrdi Bala article)
‘klIm’ As seen before this will denote the tatvas, here the tatvasodhana in the navavarana puja as instructed by the Sri Guru.
‘hrIm’ will signify the first spanda as said already, here this will be the experience of this spanda by the aspirant on continuous tatva sodhana in the pujas.
‘srIm’ is the parabrahman as indicated above , here is the merging of the aspirant into the parabrahma and continuous experience of universal bliss.
Meditative technique
The meditative technique was revealed by Sri Amritanadanatha (Sri Prahlada sastriji) of Devipuram Andhra Pradesh, which follows the above meaning. Although revealed by two different Gurus, the similarities in both are astounding, thus we find that all gurus are reflection of the Initial preceptor (Adinatha). Following is whatsoever was grasped by the mind due to the grace of Sri Guru.
‘srIm’- Meditate on the a immoveable golden hue engulfing the whole world.
‘hrIm’- Meditate on a small motion like liquefaction in this golden hue and its movement.
‘klIm’- the molten gold will now condense into a red ball in the sodasantha( six inch above the head orifice – the crown)
‘aim’- this red ball will now transform into a pure white light and will start to descend on to the top of the head.
‘sauh’- this white light takes the form of Sri Guru at the dvadasanta (two spaces above the crown), this is the place of the Sri Gurupaduka
‘Om’ – The guru now pierces the orifice on the crown and descends into the body of the disciple
‘hrIm’- The Guru now will reach the mid-eyebrow centre (agyna cakra) and activate it. This will signify the thought process and deep inner meditation by the disciple on the grace of Sri Guru
‘srIm’- The Guru will reach the heart centre (anahata cakra) and will untie a knot there.  This knot can be visualized as akin to the shoe lace knot which is opened by pulling at the ends. The removal of illusion (beda buddhi) by the Supreme grace is indicated here.
‘ka-5’ Thus when knot is untied, visualize a cover which was over the body being dropped from the head, so the Face is uncovered now, which is the face of Sri Lalitha devi (Ref: parasurama sutra: sairIrakancuko siva eva jivah; and Lalitha sahasranama ‘ srimatvagbhavakutaika………….katyadhobhagadhriNi)
‘ha-6’ The cover further drops down from neck to navel visualize the body being transformed into that of Sri Lalitha devi, the four hand holding the noose, goad, sugarcane bow and five flowers as arrows.
‘sa-4’- Further the cover drops to below the feet, that part also gets transformed into that of Sri Lalitha Devi
‘sauh’- Now the inner Guru who has graced this transformation will merge with this body of the deity Sri Lalitha devi and will pick up the cover which has fallen down, this will signify the Individual ego –the cause of this cover.
‘aim’- visualize this cover being transferred on to a white light, while being hurled out.
‘klIm’- Let this white light hit the sodasanta and get transformed into a red hue
 ‘hrIm’ – Let this red hue disperse into the world after being transformed into a molted golden hue
‘srIm’- Let this golden hue engulf the whole world including this body of SriLalitha/Sri Guru ( which was previously the individual) and remain so for ever.
This is a very powerful meditation technique, so please try this very slowly. Only once per day visualization at the initial level is recommended.
Pa~nca devata and MahaSodasi
The Parasurama kapla sutra is a primary text on the srividya path which prescribes individual attendance to five deities at allotted time in a day. They are ganapaty, sundari in the pre-noon, syamala in the after noon, varahi in the night, para in the pre dawn (brahma muhUrtha). In order to get the full benevolent grace of the central Maha Vidya Sundari, the devotion to the others is a pre-requisite.  Sundari is represented by the 15 lettered Pancadasi Maha mantra, Ganapaty mantra has 28 letters, Matangi has 98, Varahi has 112 and para is a single syllable.
On deep mediation Maha Sodasi was found to be a convergence of the other four deities with Sundari. The first three bijas will represent the ganapati mantra, which also starts with these bijas in it. Next ‘Aim’ will refer to varahi mantra which starts with the same bija. ‘Sauh’ will refer to para. Next ‘Om hrIm srIm ka15’ is the sushupti srividya, the jagrat being ‘om ka15’ the svapna being ‘om hrIm ka15’. Thus this will include the other two vidyas also. Next ’sauh aim klim’ is again the Moksha dayaini Bala vidya, who is the child form of Sri lalitha. In the end is ‘klIm hrIm srIm’ which are found in the middle of the RajaMatangi vidya. Thus we find that Mahasodasi is the convergence of all deities instructed by Sri Parasurama.
In certain lineages there is a special dhyana sloka for this Sodasi Maha mantra which explicitly beckon the deity as ‘Sodasi’
‘cApa~ncekshumayam parsUna visikhAn pAsA~nkusau pustakam
maNikyakshasrajavaram maNimayIm vINAm sarojadvaye
pANibhuAm abhatyam varam ca  dadhatIm brahmAdisevyAm parAm
sindUrAruNa vigrahAm bhagavatIm tAm sodasIm Asraye’
The free translation will run as: ‘Let us take refuge in the Queen Sodasi, her red splendor form, attended by Brahma and other gods, holding the sugarcane bow, flowery arrows, noose, goad, book, rosary of red ruby gems, the veena, gestures of dispelling fear and granting boons in her lotus like hands.’
 The above meditation verse also gives us a clue to the unification of the panca devatas said in Parasurama kalpa.
The first four- sugarcane bow, flowery arrows, noose and goad will refer to Sundari srIvidya. The red hue is that of ganapaty whose mediation verse refers ‘soNA~ngam.’ The book and rosary will refer to Balambika –dhyana sloka refers ‘japavaTIkA pustaka’; transforming the rosary to the gyana mudra, since both point to the knowledge in action, we can find para bhattarika per her dhyana ‘mudra pusta’. The vina is found in the hands of Matangisvari as ‘sadvINAm’. The gestures of dispelling fear and granting boons is found in Varahi dhyana as ‘abhItim’ and ‘varAn’. Thus the ten hand form of Sri Sodasi described above will be a unified power of the panca devata as said in parasurama kalpa.
Dasamahavidya in MahaSodasi
On deeper meditation, for a simple question- what is the difference between Sodasi or Sundari, the third of Dasamahavidyas and this Maha Sodasi, it was revealed that these sequence of bijas are also representative of the Dasa mahavidyas itself. Thus being the complete unison of powers of the DasaMahavidyas, this Maha Sodasi is indeed very powerful in granting all wishes, while taking the aspirant to experience the highest Brahman.
Let us see an individual correspondence of the bijas
‘Srim hrIm kLIm’ – the fisrt three bijas are found in the beginning of Mahaganapati mantra and hence a benevolent and obstacle removing power of this mantra is unfolded
‘Srim hrIm kLIm aim’ – these bijas are the beginning of the Parcanda candika, the chinnamasta mantra, which is the sixth Maha vidya which runs as ‘srim hrim klim ai vajravairocanIye hUm hUm phaT svaha’
‘sauh’ will relate to highest and pre-creative power expressed as DhUmavati, the seventh Mahavidya
‘Om” called as taraka mantra or pranava  will relate to  tarA , the second Maha vidya ‘hrIm’ will relate to the maya or bhuvanesi bija, thus the fourth Mahavidya Bhuvanesi
 ‘srim ka 15’ will relate to the third Maha vidya the Sodasi or Sundari, the positioning  of the sodasi bija at the beginning is there in certain sampradaya. Also we can look at the three kutas, shorter version of this is in the form of Bala Maha mantra, which is the seed for the tripurabhairavi the fifth Maha vidya
‘sauh’  , the second para bija will relate to the mighty Para Bhattarika, the supreme goddess of Universal consciousness.
‘aim’ – the vowel will relate to Matangi, the ninth Mahavidya, who represents the sound force
‘klIm’ – Tantric dictionaries say ‘ra’ / ‘la’ is interchangeable. So substituting ‘ra; in the kama bija will see the emergence of dakshina kalika, the Adya – the first of All Maha vidya
‘hrIm’- Taking the ‘la’ from the above bija we can see the emergence of bagalamukhi, the eighth Mahavidya with her bija ‘hlrIm’
‘srIm’ – this will relate to the last (tenth)of Maha vidyas the kamalatmika.
In certain traditions the above mantra is called Sodasi and another mantra is imparted which is called Mahasodasi. This mantra can be found in Trailokhyamohana kavaca as revered (revealed) by Maha deva as ‘klIm hrIm srIm Aim klIm sauh ka 15 strIm aim krom krIm Im hUm.’ This mantra also has a correspondence with the dasa mahavidyas.
‘klIm’- ‘k’ represents Brahman, which is also represented by ‘h’. So substituting this we will find this to be Bagalamukhi the eighth Mahavidya as ‘hlIm’. The ‘r’ deficient bija of Bagala is also accepted by tantras.
hrIm ’- the Maya bija will represent Bhuvanesi, the fourth  Maha vidya
‘Aim klIm sauh’ will correspond to the fifth tripura bhairavi Mahavidya since her seed lies in the Bala mantra, which is seen here.
‘ka-15’ will correspond to the Sundari the third Mahavidya and also the sodasi by adding   the thrid bija ‘srim’.
‘strIm’ is the special bija of Tara the second Mahavidya
‘Aim’ will represent the matangi the ninth Mahavidya
‘krom’ will symbolize ‘krodha bhairava’ the consort of the sixth Maha vidya , chinnamasta.
‘krIm’ directly refers to the AdyA dakshiNa kalika
‘Im’ – this is the last maha Vidya Kamakatmika, sri suktam unfolds her as ‘tAm padminIm Im saraNamaham prapadye’
‘hUm’ is the seventh Mahavidya, Dhumavati her seed sound ‘U’ is there.
There is a special meditative verse for this mantra, wherein the deity is explicitly called MahaSodasi. The eight armed form will hold the weapons of Sundari and DakshiNa kali. Since the ten vidyas will come under either kali Kula or Sri Kula, these deities are mediated as the union of the dasaMahavidya in Maha Sodasi
‘candrArkAnala koTi nIradarucam pAsA~nkusAmAsugAn
muNdam khadgamabhayamIkshvarIvaram hastAmbujairaShTabhih
kAmesAna sivoparisthitasadAm trayakshAm vahantIm parAm
sri cintAmaNi mantra bIja vapuShIm dhyAye mahA SodasIm
A translation would runs thus: ‘Let us meditate on Maha Sodasi, the physical form of Sri Cintamani mantra, the highest Consciousness, with three eyes, seated top on Siva Kamesvara in eternal union, holding in her eight hand, the noose, goad, arrows, sugarcane bow, severed head, sword, gestures of dispelling fear and granting boons, Of the color of Fire- red, with the brilliance of crores of sun, but soothing as crores of moon light, along with a shade of black, like the rain bearing clouds’.
The Red color, brilliance, the noose, goad, arrows, sugarcane bow and Kamesvara will point to sundari .The tinge of black like rain bearing cloud, severed head, sword, gestures of dispelling fear and granting boons and Siva (mahakala) will relate to the dakshina kalika. So this meditative verse points to the unification of all deities of the Dasa Mahavidya under Sri and kali kula in Maha Sodasi.
Thus we find that Mahasodasi mantra is powerhouse of the Dasamahavidya and the panca devatas of Parasurama kalpasutra, hence greatness is attributed to this mantra. This Maha mantra guarantees liberation (Moksha) in this birth itself. Hence it is the duty & responsibility of Guru to ensure that such a great secret mantra, Maha Shodasi, should be given only to that disciple who is highly evolved, possessing a very high level of Chittha Shuddhi (which is possessing a mind free from any egoistic stain) and wholly involved in deep, serious Devi Upasana already with Ganapathy & Bala, Matangi, Varahi and Sundari (Pancadasi). It should not even be exposed to “Pasu" category of upasakas & should be kept as a "Rahasya" away from them. Only after ascertaining that the sishya has progressed well with in sadhana, the Guhya Artham to merge with Devi (Moksha) through Shodasi is revealed. Moksha as per Sri Vidya is "Jeevan Mukti"- liberation while living, as detailed in Yoga Vasishtam, Ashtavakra Gita etc.